Some people build castles in the sand, other's carve them out of ice. Seeing what imagination can build. I am once again reminded that I am the only one that can ever hold myself back from living my full potential. I was instantly drawn to this photo of the icy pillar archway that looked through to a mountain backdrop. In that moment I could feel the symbolism of what it means to "walk through" the open door ahead of me. There are times in life that you "know that you know" you are doing the right thing in stepping forward, entering the threshold and moving past all the doubt of the past.
I am taking solace today in knowing that I am exactly where I need to be. It's been a emotional week of dismantling my home that I owned on my own and getting it ready for sale. The thing about endings is that they always lead to new beginnings. I am happy to be moving forward in my life, it's just that there has been so much change that has happened in a short period of time. I quit the security of my job after 17 years, I'm embarking on a new career of my own making, I got married and I am moving. Whew! It's a lot to take in and get used to, but I am embracing it.
I spent the day yesterday sorting through piles of old memories, pictures, stacks of magazines that for some reason I had been saving. After a few hours of working on my place I sat on my living room floor and leaned against the wall. My house now sounding the cavernous echo of it's sterile empty walls. All that was me, now removed. My heart felt heavy and dripping with my soggy tears. I hadn't anticipated that this much emotion would be attached to leaving, but I always seem to underestimate how these things will actually feel.
Little by little I will keep moving forward.